this is odd........

ok so ive been battling my weight since i was a teenager...when i get stressed i eat but this week after standing on the scale and ONLY losing the 1/2 pound i have done the complete opposite i am not eating...this is odd. dont get me wrong i am eating what im supposed to and writing it all down but im not inhaling junk or pasta just to be comforted or just because.....is it because i hate to be defeated..or is it because im learning or is it ive just gotten to the point that im done repeating all the mistakes ive been doing before? i want to feel like me again...i want to be able to look in the mirror and not see an ugly blob..i want to feel attractive..and i want to do it all for me...i cant please everyone but i hope to god i am actually realizing i only have to please me!!!! crazy thought aint it?