selfish........

i wonder what its like to be selfish...to not have to worry about anyone else. their feelings, needs or their happiness......i unfortunately am not selfish...i have been taking care of other people non stop since my youngest broke his arm in september. (dont get me wrong ive been taking care of them their whole life but more so since then)first the wrist then a sprained knee...then older child broke his collarbone in three places then hubby had hiccups for six days and needed hospital care...get ready im gonna whine......IM DONE! these people in my house have sucked the life out of me.....i have had no time to breathe...or read or just be me...ive been a nurse too long without pay lol....my weight has not been affected to bad... i have lost 10 pounds in 8 weeks ya but i feel like it has a battle to take time to work on losing weight///i feel guilty leaving my house to walk/// i feel guilty spending the xtra money for the healthy food and i feel like i dont deserve it....i dont deserve the xtra things i need to lose more ...my family is too needy...all of them and im not Selfish.